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| Wow, this semester has gone by so fast. One week until Thanksgiving break. I think I can hold on till then. God has really been throwing stuff at me these past few weeks. Ever since student body I feel like something needs to be done about my spiritual condition, and I want to spread these feelings to more people on campus. We desperately need revival. All I am able to do right now is pray and share in prayer group. I really want to reach the people on campus who have heard about salvation their entire lives but have never accepted Christ into their heart. The icing on the cake is that the majority of the administration doesn't see it. Such a huge need and no one sees it. If you've read this far into my blog, please I implore you, pray. Pray without ceasing. We CAN make a difference! On a lighter note, I am having so much fun with my speech classes. I really feel like I'm living in my element. My Public Speaking class is awesome, if you ever want to inprove your delivery skills while having fun and learning how to adapt to any kind of audience, take Public Speaking with Miss Aumiller. You won't regret it. Friday I'm giving my persuasive speech which pretty much counts the same as my final exam. Kinda scary, it should go well. I no longer freak out in front of people too much anymore. I have come a long way from that kid who spoke very softly and couldn't keep her knees from knocking together when giving a speech. In retrospect, it's very funny. My first speech ever, I had to hold the podium in a death grip to keep my legs from bouncing up and down. Now there is a passion to convey my ideas to other around me. Each time I get up I'm not merely being graded, I have an opportunity to reach my peers. Hehe, of course they have no choice but to listen to me, but still I have the opportunity to change people. I won't waste a word. I want to leave a mark on this world. To have some major contribution to the edification of others, and to spread the righteousness of God no matter what subject I speak on. Right now is such an exciting time in my walk with the Lord. I can't wait to see what He has for me in the future. Until next time, may the Lord bless you and give you the courage to do right. Laterz~Ren | | |
| Well, it's been forever and a day since I've been on Xanga. Pathetic I know. Haha, right now I'm in Anderson, Indiana. Why? Bob Jones moved their campus there. Just kidding. The first debate tournament at Anderson University. We have ony been here for one day and already God is teaching me new things. Mainly how to be broken before Him. In personal reflection I've realized that I have to have a deficiency or a problem, something that I don't have a solution to, before God can fully utilize me. I would have to say the main goal in debate right now is not to win. Winning for winning's sake is as "a tinkling brass." It's nothing. What really matters is if I am giving a good testimony to Christ or not. I am excited today, excited thinkning about how God is going to use me today! How did I arrive at this conclusion? By the grace of God of course........but I also debated sooooooo bad yesterday. Urgh, it was so painful. Babbitt, my partner, is so understanding. She gave me the option of waiting till after the round to die. heh heh, yeah it was pretty bad. But I'm still alive and the wonderful thing about being human is that we can learn from our mistakes. I'm learning a lot!!! haha. Hey but I'm at least moving in the right direction by falling flat on my face all the time...forward. Anywho, pack up time is now upon me. The first round today is a 8am!!! yes, waaay too early for my liking. Please pray not that I do well, but that I give a good and lasting testimony that will help further God's kingdom. Laterz~Ren | | |
| Heya! Bible conference week! At first I was really bummed from what everybody was telling me. How people get so tired and it's major craziness in general. But tonight was worth it all. Dr. Hantz Bernard spoke and I could almost feel God working in my heart. So many things he said started convicting me during the service. Afterwards my friend Kat and I went back to the dorm and had some good discussion of the service. I'm really glad I took a bunch of notes, I want to keep all the truths that I heard tonight. He talked about how the children of Israel didn't trust in God to help them defeat the giants in the promised land. We as christians today get so relaxed in our lives. We have material wealth and everything seems to be going well, then God throws something at us and we balk. We rebel against God and say how unfaithful he is to us. Yet we have forgotten all the wonderful things he has done for us in the past. After the service I felt like I needed to just get on my knees for a good bit and talk with God. I'm going to go do that now. God to me is not a lofty thought or creature way above the lowly existence of man. Yes he is the creator of the universe and he has certain respect and actions due him, but he is also my friend. He knows me better than anyone else, he sees my secret fears and desires. And most of all, He'll never betray me. He only wants what's best for me and He is the only one that can give me what I need to become more holy. I hope I never lose the wonder that God has done and IS DOING for me right now today and forever.
Laterz~Ren
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| Ello beautiful people! Yes...I know I'm not the best at posting on my anga too often. But that will all change due to a wonderful little thingy which I don't quite understand. You don't know what I'm talking about? Neither do I. But needless to say I love life right now. We just returned from beautiful Owensboro, Kentucky for debate and I *Finally* got 1st place speaker award. After suffering defeat by less than 1 point in previous tournaments I finally got it. I'd write but I have waaaay to much homework to do right now...have to keep up with all the grades and such.
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| Hey guys! Yeah I know, it' pretty sad that I spent so much time putting this site together and I never post on it. Anywho, Christmas break is almost over and half of me wants to run away to BJ as fast as I can so I can see all my great friends like Kat, Ryan, and Erin. I love y'all guys!!! And the other half of me wants to stay home with my family and the food, my pal Rob (you rock dude!), my golfing buddy Sydney, my kitties, and of course I have to mention the food again. I fear I may start to look like an emaciated war camp victim if I stay at BJ longer than a few months at a time. Lol, but it's all good. I hope everybody had a wonderful Christmas and a Happy New Year. I also hope that you ALL said 'Merry Christmas' instead of 'happy holidays' ...yeah, evil Target...grrr. I look forward to a prosperous new year, 2006 is going to be one great year. Have fun you guys and don't forget to drop me a line now and then in email!
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